So in an effort to fully commit to this blog (yes, I even have commitment issues to blogs...I know, I'm working on it) I decided to post at least once before I leave for my Peace Corps assignment to Guatemala (aka Hotamala)...So here goes...
Many people have asked me if I am excited to begin "the toughest job you'll ever love" or if I am ready for "the adventure of a lifetime"...in truth right now I am just scared. Scared sh*tless for lack of a better descriptor. All my life I have been preparing myself for this dream of mine--the Peace Corps. I have spent summers interning or volunteering abroad, pushing myself out of my comfort zone, challenging myself to see if I could handle it to make sure that the Peace Corps was 1) something I could actually do, and 2) something I still want to do. I've always felt confident about my decision to pick up and leave for 27 months and do something fully connected to my two passions: human rights and international development; however, now the doubts and misgivings are creeping into my mind, like a disease, growing bigger and bigger, commandeering my brain. I have all these crazy, irrational fears, and friends sending me links about giant sinkholes in Guatemala or newspaper clippings citing the ever-growing statistics of cases of violence against women there are not exactly helping to boost my confidence and ease my nerves (you know who you are, but I still love you guys!)
But this has been my dream since I was 16, and so, I am going for it. Yes, of course I am excited. But I am scared, nervous, etc., too. However, I suppose as with any big decision, these feelings are normal, and definitely warranted...or at least I am telling myself that...
Well, I'll talk to you all next post!
Until then, hasta luego!
